Thursday 15 December 2022
Medication day 2.
Did not sleep well last night. For some reason, I struggled to go to sleep after making myself stay up later so I didn’t wake up so early.
Took medication at 6.30 am.
7.01am – Medication not kicked in yet. I’m just about to start yoga, and I’m feeling extremely lethargic, and I have a headache brewing. Hopefully, it kicks in in the middle of yoga as I’m so tired.
8.13am – The medication is not as profound this morning, so I am guessing a lot of yesterday morning was a placebo, or it could be that I am tired. I am feeling focused. I ordered a mascara on Amazon, which I have been forgetting about for months now, as soon as I had used my knackered manky old one, and added it to Subscribe and Save!
I feel nauseous. However, this is no different from how nauseous I feel normally when I don’t get enough sleep. I am teetering on the edge of a headache.
When is the library open from, I have a book to return before Saturday … 9am, I will go at lunch.
8.49am- It is -10 degrees outside today on the school run, but I have noticed that I’m able to retain my body temperature, and I’m not so adverse to cold when on this medication. After it wore off yesterday, I was back to being freezing cold again and spent the evening with my feet up against the heater, keeping warm. Interesting, as I generally have a massive intolerance to both too hot and too cold. It will be interesting to see what it’s like in the summer.
There is no point in tracking my weight every day. I will do it once a week instead. Check blood pressure several times a day, though.
Joe rang at 8.20am to let me know the book edits I have done are great. This really increased my motivation to finish it for him.
I have run out of breakfast biscuits.
8.58am.- My lounge is such a mess, and it’s not bothering me. This is odd. I think that is because I am calmer in my mind, and I have a plan in my mind to focus on sorting it out later on today. Time is also working. It is slow and consistent and weird. It never behaves like this.
12.46pm – They are definitely not as effective today because I am so tired. I have also been in team meetings more or less back to back since 9am, and this causes further exhaustion as I am constantly being “watched,” and it’s draining. I much prefer face to face meetings, and I wish I could turn off everyone’s camera so they are not looking at me at all times. It is such a bad method of communication because you are constantly in the limelight even when you are not talking.
I could really do with a nap, but that is not acceptable on my lunch break, and I only get half an hour until I start my new job.
I’m feeling disappointed that I am so tired and not as effective today. Although saying that, I have cleared some emails and dealt with all those ones I reviewed, and have started a short course on Cyber Security that I have been putting off for 5 months after a chasing email this morning. So there are some slight improvements today.
6.24pm – I have just finished work. Called into a meeting at 5pm that lasted longer than it should, but I retained focus. The medication has run out now. I’m exhausted again and feeling a bit crappy as I don’t have the energy or desire to tidy the lounge, and to top it off, I ordered a takeaway tonight.
Early night tonight, I think, is needed because I royally mucked up last night with my sleep. A little bit of self-battering is about to occur, I can feel it coming. Silly mind’s voice picking on me.
I didn’t make it to the library to return my book today at lunch.
Today was not a good day because I have been so tired. I’ve also ordered a can of coke with my dinner to perk me up.
Come on Bird, perk up!!!
9.44pm I am back to my old tricks this evening. I half tidied the lounge and then plonked my butt on the sofa with my mate Judge Judy whilst I designed pins on Canva and set my blog up to record my medication journey. This is not what I was meant to be doing! I was meant to be sorting out the lounge. But hey ho, the blog is up and running again 😊
I am heading to bed now to try and get some rest to have a better day tomorrow.
Food log:
Breakfast – An orange, some weird mint flavoured breakfast biscuits I found lurking in the back of the cupboard that were forgotten about.
Lunch – three potato waffles, a packet of crisps and some walnuts
Snack – 2 oranges and a candy cane
Dinner – 1/2 a chicken balti, 4 poppadoms and a can of coke from the Indian.
Blood pressure at 9.52pm – 112/77 99bpm
Heart rate really high again, blood pressure low
9.53pm 114/77 94bpm
9.54pm 118/78 97bpm
Average heart rate today 48-133bpm
I am hoping tomorrow I feel the positive effects again like yesterday.
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