Wednesday 14 December 2022
Today is medication day 1.
I took the medication at 6.30 am.
I’ve been awake since 4.15 am because I went to sleep too early last night at 9.15pm, and I ended up having seven hours of sleep.
Have mild anxiety over the effects of this medication on me, I think it is just the unknown.
Watched a few review videos on Elvanse on YouTube and I feel optimistic about the medication and aware of things to look out for from a side effect point of view, such as a racing heart for a few days and increased irritability. And more sweating, lol. Also, I was advised yesterday that I could get headaches, but they should ease up after a couple of weeks, and I need to keep an eye on my appetite as these drugs can suppress hunger.
I will also track my weight every morning.
I will try and note down my symptoms.
I am waiting for this “come up” feeling as I have never experienced this before ever. I really hope I see instant improvements 😊
My period is due today, so my hormones may be heightened.
Upset stomach within 15 minutes of taking medication, but that may be due to anxiety over taking drugs.
6.58am – I am feeling happy. I am not sure if it’s the placebo effect or whether it is starting to kick in. My chest feels a little odd, but I did just smoke a cigarette. Will keep an eye on my heart rate with my watch.
7.27am- I am very coherent and extremely chatty, but in a way where it is good chatty. My mind is slightly quieter, and I can think straighter than usual. This is odd, but it’s a good kind of odd. My balance was better in yoga, but I got irritated with myself over one of the moves where I couldnt keep my foot against my inner thigh because my leggings were too slippy. It is very unlike me to get irritated over something like that. I need to keep an eye on this. But overall, I am feeling pretty good so far. I am clenching my jaw, though. I have just noticed, and it is mildly aching already.
I am replying to WhatsApp messages immediately! What is this witchcraft? 😂 and I really want to have a shower. This is odd.
7.49am – These drugs are brilliant. I have never had so much clarity in my life. This is making me feel so happy and excited (and quite emotional). It could just be that I am high. However, this is the most wonderful feeling of being able to focus on one thing at a time and be here in the moment. I loved having a shower, I was full of energy and was jigging around. I put the bottles I had emptied in the bin after my shower. This is something else! I feel like I can take on the world, and it makes me want to cry in a good way. I am loving this so far! Oh my.
7.55am – I have finally figured out what my blog will be about, and it will be amazing! It will be all about my journey with ADHD and the impact on me then and now, and it will be a blockbuster!
Let’s get up and dressed and hair dried now and see how that goes! I just want to do everything “now”, this is unreal! I love this!!!! And I’m starving.
Weight at 8 am – 55.5kg
Lunchtime reflection – 1.40pm – So today, I have been somewhat productive. However, the fact I am not organised means I am still feeling unable to figure out what I should be doing, but going forwards, if I can start pre-planning and prioritising, I should be able to reduce this feeling of not knowing what to do. But with that in mind, what I have done, I have done methodically with no anxiety, panic, and little boredom. I have also completed a couple of small tasks I had been putting off.
My energy level is OK. It’s not as high as this morning, but it’s still better than usual at this time of the day. I definitely have increased anxiety on certain things. I have it in my head that Joe isn’t happy with me, and he has read my message but not replied. This is not like me, I’m not usually this neurotic, and this is something I don’t like. I am sure he is just super busy and will message me when he is free.
6.34pm – I think it has worn off now. My normal level of tiredness has kicked in, and I feel exhausted like I normally do at this time. Possibly due to waking up at 4.15am, though we will see what I am like tomorrow evening. I think I need to try and get in more exercise somehow to invigorate me.
7.16pm- I am now so desperately tired. I really cannot tell if it’s due to being awake so early.
Period started today, although I think hormones are low when period starts. Need to monitor around ovulation time.
Symptoms overview for the day:
– Increased energy throughout the work day.
– Ability to focus on completing tasks that were taking longer than I first anticipated. Before I would just give up and not finish it. Today I had time available to pick up the work again later on, so this may be a factor.
– Increased anxiety and insecurity surrounding my relationship with Joe. Very silly as everything is just perfect.
– An increased desire to communicate with people. I replied to WhatsApp messages and rang my friend Lou for a chat.
– Worked more methodically but much slower than normal. Not in a frenzy like normal.
– Felt a bit lost in the middle of the day. However, I believe this is to do with me not preplanning what work I needed to do. This can be resolved.
– I smell sweaty today.
– Intense tiredness at the end of the day but may be due to waking up so early. Going to stay up later tonight to tackle this.
– Nausea in the afternoon. Tackled it by eating, which was my tactic when I had morning sickness. It seemed to work well enough.
– I smoked much less throughout the day today as I was more involved in work rather than trying to relieve my boredom/stress at work by going for a cigarette.
– No sense of urgency/firefighting today, I was calm and didn’t care when I was late to meetings.
– My mind has been quieter, still noisy but quiet enough for me to remember what I was doing rather than losing my train of thought mid-activity. My thoughts were associated, not random thoughts of everything all at once.
– Had a desire to say no a lot today. I did not, but I think I am going to embrace this going forwards.
– My heart rate has been elevated on and off throughout the day today. Range of 48 to 137. No strenuous exercise, only the walk to school and back, and yoga first thing. Monitor this daily.
– Feeling of a headache lurking, but it never appeared. So, I am not reporting a headache as such, but there was the potential for one.
Food log:
Breakfast – one piece of toast and an orange.
Snack – orange juice, breakfast biscuits
Lunch – ham sandwich, 2 packets of crisps, one mint chocolate bar thing
Snack – orange, orange juice, hot chocolate
Dinner – jacket potato and 1/2 tin of curry
Blood pressure at 19.47pm – 110/74 105bpm
My heart rate needs watching.
I had some pretty intense nausea before bed. It could have been because I was so tired or the medication. I will keep an eye on it and monitor it. I just monged and played games on my phone before bed, then got stuck in YouTube for hours.
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